心之帝王

时光向前,我们跟着向前走。

常常流连于幻想与现实之间,随意穿行。这能力,是一种天分,是福祉。

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过去与现在之间,界限是模糊的。两种完全不同的体验,却如此模糊的连接着。从没有后悔过,也不会。幸福就是如此,是满足,是按照自己的意愿活着。每个选择都指向不同的未来。走过去,才知道。也会偶尔去想象当初做出另一种选择,会带来怎么样的现在。但是如果,也只是如果。没有后悔,只是好奇而已。

和一个经常冥想的朋友聊起冥想给他带来的人生改变。他说,自己很容易站在一个旁观者的角度看自己的生活。不管快乐或者悲伤,都时刻清醒的知道,这些都是会成为过去的。而自己能抓住的,只有现在的这一刻。没有执念,就是自由。

不论是幻想,脑海中的多角色演绎,还是现实,你我无法掌控的剧情,只要能够穿梭于其间,就是做了自己心灵的帝王。自由与否,也只有自己知道。但至少,是满足的,就是幸福的。

于是,我们逆流而上

最近开始读一些很久以前读过的文字。这些文字的作者当初也是高中时候的孩子。自己高中的时候读人家高中写的东西,心中对他充满着无限的仰慕之情。现在读来,却是很重的青涩痕迹。好像青春就是这么狼狈,更狼狈的是,没有经历过的,想象中的狼狈。

现在想起一年前的自己都是那么的幼稚。还记得三年前看五年前写过的文章,在后面给自己评论:“怎么竟然能如此矫情?无病呻吟的高中终于过去了哈。”可是现在呢?看看三年前自己的文字,总是摇着头:怎么当时自己什么都看不清,就好像装模作样出自己什么都很明白的样子。

人是无法走回过去了。所以每每向后望,才有嘲笑过去的念头。过去没有现在好,才说明我们都在向前走。

青春是一首逆行的诗。我们的主旋律永远是在与世界作对。跳跃,为的是克服重力;嘶喊,是为了挑战沉默。也或许,我们在回顾曾经为青春奋斗过的自己时,除了自嘲(我当初这是怎么想的呀哈哈),也要记住:那时的我们,也是最好的我们,是逆流而上的我们。

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For a WG, for a Living

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Finding a room in a university city is unbelievably difficult. Walking through Heidelberg, I visited several places, talked to people, wishing them that they could take me as a roommate. Sounds a bit pathetic, but it’s true. Closer to October, harder the situation gets, more desperate I get.

I believe there are rare city in Germany that has enough student dormitories. In Hong Kong, it is almost the same. But HK is a city, with over 7million people living there; while a student city like Heidelberg in Germany has normally 150 thousand people. Cities are supposed to be able to build more student dormitories in order to release students from the pressure of finding room to live before, sometimes even during semester.

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The reason for universities in Germany cannot (or do not want to) pay more in building up residence is probably that they do not charge for much tuition fees, as Hong Kong universities do. But they must have some finical sources for establishing good environment, which also includes student accommodation possibilities.

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On the other hand, searching for a WG (shared apartment) in German university cities is painful, but also rewarding. I constantly remind myself: never give up, and smile.