I guess I will be the last one goes to bed. Forever.
Sometimes I do think it feels unfair. Why do I always have to be the one who is making sure everything and everyone is ok before turning in or just resting herself?
But on the other hand, it’s my own choice, too.
I choose to do all these things. I don’t do it perfectly but somehow I feel I have the responsibility to do it.
Is it a sexist thing to do? I mean, am I conditioned to do that and behave like the responsible adult in the newly established family which consists of two adult at the same age and a little baby?
I was not like this at all. What changed?
I was the person who’s taking care of her own shit but now I leave everything to my husband. What changed?
Well, I have him now.
I leave the things in my life that he does better. I take care of the things which he overlooks.
I guess that’s just teamwork.
I guess not everything has to be a sexist thing.
I guess I’m certainly conditioned in many ways. But it doesn’t always have to be that way.