“Life was so simple before,” I thought. “Why do I have to get myself so much attachment in life?”
Such thoughts appear whenever something my husband or baby does that irritates me.
Sure, life would have been easier and simpler. Lighter and freer. I could go anywhere I want and do whatever I want; eat whatever I want and drink as much as I want. The world would be opened up to me and there would be uncountable possibilities…
Too bad we can only see the small portion of the whole picture of our own lives.
But we imagine the could-be life down another road as the shining, bright side of that whole picture.
It’s impossible for me to stop myself from thinking about “what would have been…” That’s my sincere reaction to every relationship I have had. I wanted to stay alone and independent. So there is no commitment, no responsibility. So that I can push the “stop” button whenever I can.
But life is just much too meaningful to live like the only star in the sky.
If I am brave enough, my pain triples and happiness times a thousand.
That’s only possible with strings attached.