Life sucks? Sure, sometimes it does. Or for some people, most of the times. I don’t know if it is true that there are these places, where being poor is not a fatal threat. What I do know is, lack of money is ruthless bitch, in every society I lived/am living in. Self-instability and financial dependence on parents, who are also in the same crisis, is shameful.
Earn a livelihood? Never thought this would hit me so hard like it did today.
Why do people has to live in this way? Why can’t they just be like birds? why do they have to love, have to cry? it’s already spring, but it is still so cold? What happened to the regular four seasons? No snow in winter, no warmth in spring.
天鹅，虽然美丽，但却冷漠，愚蠢，甚至暴力。他们聚集在一起，却仍独自等待食物被抛到她们嘴中。几只鸭子夹在天鹅群里，跟他们争抢食物。天鹅们互相用嘴钳着对方，驱赶着对方。灰鸽子在争抢撒在岸上的面包屑。海鸥也加入了。what does it cost to make them behave so stupid like this? it is the ultimate aim of survival. maybe being stupid or not matter to them at all. only one thing matters and one thing only.
Game on. No backsies.
The biggest challenge is always the greatest fear.
I always tell myself I enjoy being on the road. Showing bravery to the others is no doubt a way to calm myself. When fear overwhelms, to escape is the only thing that pops into one’s head. It is a time when people crawl back into their comfort zone. Well, most of them. But some would not. Giving up is easy, keeping faith is hard. Uncertainty of not acquiring something you really want is terrifying, but you should better remember “a dream realised is no longer a dream. Happiness possessed is no longer happiness pursued.”
就算是残酷又如何？高傲又如何？人类不喜欢又怎样？天鹅还是天鹅，海鸥仍是海鸥。生存第一，没有第二。这就是自然，这才是人类的本能。
曾经考虑过植物人与植物的区别。植物人到底有没有意识的存在，这一点还是不清楚。但是他们没有基本的生存意识，只是新陈代谢还在进行。人们把他们叫做“植物人”是因为他们不动，就像植物一样。但是却忽略了植物却是有很强的生存意识的。这并不只是一般意义上的“意识”，亦或是“思想”的定义。而是一种向往生存的极度追求，这是自然界中一切生命的终极目标。
现实很残酷，也很矛盾。《小公主》告诉人们在没有物质生活或者物质生活极度匮乏的时候还是要保持精神的崇高，而现实主义教诲人们，生存第一是一切的法则，最基本的法则。所以一切为了生存做出的事情都是可以被原谅的，可以被理解的。很多人说，若是想要成功，就不要去看别人的眼光，不要在乎自己在别人眼中的形象；也有人说，不要让别人失望，如果这对你很重要的话。有的时候真的想要放弃思考这件事情。因为翻来覆去都是没有结果的争执。谁都有谁的道理，谁都有谁的难处。不同的环境和情况之下，同样的事情发生了会有完全不同的结果。这不仅仅是当事人的意识形态决定的。这不是任何一个独立因素决定的。世界多复杂，人性多复杂。
失望是有的。甚至绝望也有。但是还是放不下思考这件事。困难是有的，挑战是看待困难的另一个角度。在我的路上，我只能这样坚持。没有别的选择。所以，生活的变化就是最大的惊喜与挑战的合体。享受吧！
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