The end of February of 2021 gave me a huge surprise.
“I’m going to be a mom.”
It was also a challenge.
At first, it’s like for most people: “What? Okay. I’m not sure what just happened. I’m going to need time to digest this very brief but implication-rich information and to process all the emotions heading to my brain…”
When all the reasons noising in my head, my gut made me realize that it was the right thing to do.
So I have done something that I don’t usually do easily: I gathered all the courage in me and listened to my gut. I normally would think and calculate for a long time, and often go with my reason, even if it’s against what my instinct tells me.
But this time, instinct was overwhelmingly strong. So I said: “Challenge accepted.”
It was not an easy journey.
Hell, it was extremely hard, especially at the beginning.
The instinct was strong, but not new.
What’s new was that courage to follow that gut feeling, that instinct.
I was not a fan of children. I couldn’t imagine myself being a mother. I still need to work and develop myself professionally. I still want to make my own dent in this world. I still have so much I want to do before it’s too late…
But amidst all that noise, I felt this was right.
So I just went for it, even though I would need that great courage during this year again and again.
Now I’m here, with a new person in my life, who I don’t need courage to protect — because that’s just default, and default doesn’t need courage — I’m thankful.
The courage to trust my instinct made the best of my 2021.
There’s a reason why the road is long and wearying.
Because nature’s way is tough but rewarding.
Clear Word Drops 